My last post was right after I found out that my "perfect" plan was not going to become reality.
For the past ten years I have dreamt about going to dental school at UMKC. In high school I hadn't even looked at other colleges because I wanted to be in their six year dental program, but my Junior year of high school they got rid of the program. So, when I found out that I wasn't accepted I was devastated. I had been told time and time again that I was a shoe-in and didn't need to worry at all about getting in and that I had a great application. When I didn't get a call I was mostly confused. I thought what on earth could I have done to screw this up?
I went to UMKC to talk to the admissions director to talk about why I didn't get accepted. I was expecting him to tell me a short list of things. Possibly, your science GPA could be higher, you didn't have a job in a dental office, or you are too young because you are graduating in three years. But to my surprise, none of these were the problem. Actually he told me that there wasn't anything that was really "wrong". He said that "the committees 'concern' if you could even call it that is that you said the most stressful time in your life was when you had to take organic I and cell biology together." When he said this I automatically got mad. I was thinking, I am a student, what do you want my most stressful time to be? I have taken two science classes together almost every semester, but these classes were just particularly difficult. So he said the concern with this is that if I couldn't handle two science classes together then how could I handle five in dental school. Sitting there I was so mad. I thought what a stupid reason. Seriously, you couldn't find anything else that was wrong? Obviously I have proven that I can handle it if I have gotten this far in three years, being just as competitive as students who took the full four years. I left in angry tears.
At first I was so mad. I mean what the heck? Then as the day went on I came to realization that this is God's plan. Let me explain
1. I have been praying since JUNE that God's will is fulfilled
2. I have prayed since June that I will get into the one school God wants me to go to so I don't have to pick and make the wrong decision
3. Only 45 people got accepted here and 100 got accepted to UMKC
4. I got a "stupid" reason for not being accepted, but God had to do something to keep me out.
5. This school is almost the exact same school as AT Still in Arizona (the school absolutely loved)
6. I already have a great group of friends here and am making an impact on my small group girls at K-Life
7. I am already familiar with the area, I could easily find a roommate.
8. It is only 3 hours away from home and Luke (much better than 17 hours to Arizona)
9. My younger brother will be here and we are really close.
I have been so blinded by the fact that my "dreams" have been flushed down the toilet. Seriously, what a blessing to be given. I will be one of the first students to graduate from this new school. It is completely set up based on ASDOH, which means it is everything I loved about ASDOH, but closer. At first I was really bummed by the news I received, but now as I have had time to think about the situation, I am actually excited to stay here for another two years. My biggest worry now is what the future of my relationship with my boyfriend will look like, but we have made it 5 years and 3 years of that has been long-distance. If we can make it through that, we can make it through anything. Our plans may change, but obviously our plans don't really compare to the greatness God has planned.
Friday, December 13, 2013
Tuesday, December 3, 2013
National Dental School Acceptance Day
Well, to start off, yesterday did not bring what I thought it would. I thought after yesterday I would know where I was going to dental school and not have to wait anymore. Wrong, again. This is what happened....
I woke up at 7:30 because I knew that schools could start calling at 8:00. By the time I got to class at 9:30 I felt like I was going to puke. I didn't understand why I hadn't got a call and as the class finished at 10:20 I still hadn't received a call, and knew a few other pre-dental students that had. I was freaking out, not knowing what went wrong. In my second class at 10:45 I got a call, so I left to answer it. I was told that I got accepted and would receive an acceptance packet within the next week. I wasn't even excited. I went back to class and was texting my mom and boyfriend and not paying attention to class at all. I couldn't think about anything else. This was my very last choice, and I honestly didn't think I would even have to think about going there. I had to make myself hold my composition and not break down crying in the middle of class.
A couple hours later I finally got to go to my apartment and as soon as I walked through the front door I lost it. I ended up crying for a majority of the rest of the day. I was so confused as to why I didn't get a call from UMKC. It was well after 12 and I knew they should have finished calling by then. During my interview day everyone was saying how I didn't need to worry and that I was for sure going to get in. I was concerned as to what I could have possibly done wrong between then and now and what had changed their minds. All types of ideas were running through my head as to what went wrong. Everything from them accidentally skipping my name on the call list to forgetting about me all together since I didn't get an email saying I was on the wait list. I was seriously devastated. I have worked my whole life to get into UMKC and done everything I needed. I felt confident about my interview and that I would get in without any trouble. So not hearing from them was the worst news I could imagine.
Later that night I called my mom and was talking to her about how I was concerned since I hadn't heard anything, but when she got home there was a letter in the mail from UMKC. It stated that I was put on the wait list and my application would be processed with a very select number of students for the second round of acceptance. So, there was my answer. I have no idea what went wrong, or what happened, but at least I still have a good chance of getting in.
So, now what?....
I am going to accept the seat with a deposit because I only have a few weeks to accept it or I will lose it.
Yesterday was disappointing, confusing, and upsetting but I know there is a reason this is happening. God is continually teaching me to trust and believe Him. Although it is sometimes hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, I know it is there. Wherever God wants me I am going to be a dentist! The fact that I even got accepted at all is huge and I don't want to sound ungrateful for being accepted. My number one word in life is "PATIENCE" Everywhere I turn I am slapped in the face with it. If I could just learn that everything doesn't happen when I expect it to, I think I would be a lot better off. God has a greater plan than I do for myself. So now.... I WAIT.
I woke up at 7:30 because I knew that schools could start calling at 8:00. By the time I got to class at 9:30 I felt like I was going to puke. I didn't understand why I hadn't got a call and as the class finished at 10:20 I still hadn't received a call, and knew a few other pre-dental students that had. I was freaking out, not knowing what went wrong. In my second class at 10:45 I got a call, so I left to answer it. I was told that I got accepted and would receive an acceptance packet within the next week. I wasn't even excited. I went back to class and was texting my mom and boyfriend and not paying attention to class at all. I couldn't think about anything else. This was my very last choice, and I honestly didn't think I would even have to think about going there. I had to make myself hold my composition and not break down crying in the middle of class.
A couple hours later I finally got to go to my apartment and as soon as I walked through the front door I lost it. I ended up crying for a majority of the rest of the day. I was so confused as to why I didn't get a call from UMKC. It was well after 12 and I knew they should have finished calling by then. During my interview day everyone was saying how I didn't need to worry and that I was for sure going to get in. I was concerned as to what I could have possibly done wrong between then and now and what had changed their minds. All types of ideas were running through my head as to what went wrong. Everything from them accidentally skipping my name on the call list to forgetting about me all together since I didn't get an email saying I was on the wait list. I was seriously devastated. I have worked my whole life to get into UMKC and done everything I needed. I felt confident about my interview and that I would get in without any trouble. So not hearing from them was the worst news I could imagine.
Later that night I called my mom and was talking to her about how I was concerned since I hadn't heard anything, but when she got home there was a letter in the mail from UMKC. It stated that I was put on the wait list and my application would be processed with a very select number of students for the second round of acceptance. So, there was my answer. I have no idea what went wrong, or what happened, but at least I still have a good chance of getting in.
So, now what?....
I am going to accept the seat with a deposit because I only have a few weeks to accept it or I will lose it.
Yesterday was disappointing, confusing, and upsetting but I know there is a reason this is happening. God is continually teaching me to trust and believe Him. Although it is sometimes hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, I know it is there. Wherever God wants me I am going to be a dentist! The fact that I even got accepted at all is huge and I don't want to sound ungrateful for being accepted. My number one word in life is "PATIENCE" Everywhere I turn I am slapped in the face with it. If I could just learn that everything doesn't happen when I expect it to, I think I would be a lot better off. God has a greater plan than I do for myself. So now.... I WAIT.
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