Well, to start off, yesterday did not bring what I thought it would. I thought after yesterday I would know where I was going to dental school and not have to wait anymore. Wrong, again. This is what happened....
I woke up at 7:30 because I knew that schools could start calling at 8:00. By the time I got to class at 9:30 I felt like I was going to puke. I didn't understand why I hadn't got a call and as the class finished at 10:20 I still hadn't received a call, and knew a few other pre-dental students that had. I was freaking out, not knowing what went wrong. In my second class at 10:45 I got a call, so I left to answer it. I was told that I got accepted and would receive an acceptance packet within the next week. I wasn't even excited. I went back to class and was texting my mom and boyfriend and not paying attention to class at all. I couldn't think about anything else. This was my very last choice, and I honestly didn't think I would even have to think about going there. I had to make myself hold my composition and not break down crying in the middle of class.
A couple hours later I finally got to go to my apartment and as soon as I walked through the front door I lost it. I ended up crying for a majority of the rest of the day. I was so confused as to why I didn't get a call from UMKC. It was well after 12 and I knew they should have finished calling by then. During my interview day everyone was saying how I didn't need to worry and that I was for sure going to get in. I was concerned as to what I could have possibly done wrong between then and now and what had changed their minds. All types of ideas were running through my head as to what went wrong. Everything from them accidentally skipping my name on the call list to forgetting about me all together since I didn't get an email saying I was on the wait list. I was seriously devastated. I have worked my whole life to get into UMKC and done everything I needed. I felt confident about my interview and that I would get in without any trouble. So not hearing from them was the worst news I could imagine.
Later that night I called my mom and was talking to her about how I was concerned since I hadn't heard anything, but when she got home there was a letter in the mail from UMKC. It stated that I was put on the wait list and my application would be processed with a very select number of students for the second round of acceptance. So, there was my answer. I have no idea what went wrong, or what happened, but at least I still have a good chance of getting in.
So, now what?....
I am going to accept the seat with a deposit because I only have a few weeks to accept it or I will lose it.
Yesterday was disappointing, confusing, and upsetting but I know there is a reason this is happening. God is continually teaching me to trust and believe Him. Although it is sometimes hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, I know it is there. Wherever God wants me I am going to be a dentist! The fact that I even got accepted at all is huge and I don't want to sound ungrateful for being accepted. My number one word in life is "PATIENCE" Everywhere I turn I am slapped in the face with it. If I could just learn that everything doesn't happen when I expect it to, I think I would be a lot better off. God has a greater plan than I do for myself. So now.... I WAIT.
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